I wanna draw a bird
Flying, Gliding, Free!
Speeding along the forest
In search of its nest
I wanna draw a lion
Proud, Running, Free!
Pouncing on its prey
Like the king of his day
I wanna draw a stream
Swift, Shining, Free!
Passing through the dry lands
Quenching thirst, Cleansing pains
I wanna draw a mountain
Mighty, Strong, Free!
Holding together this divided ground
For milleniums alone
I wanna draw a tree
Pure, Giving, Free!
A thing so generous so true
Living to give life; Dying to burn for you
I wanna draw the wind
Calming, Sudden, Free
Which carries the faint fragrance
which holds the secret, something unknown
I wanna draw a man
Dreaming, Aiming, Free
Crossing the limits known
Yet, lost, troubled, sad
Sunday, November 2, 2008
truth
You say the pain of knowledge
exceeds in beauty
the bliss of ignorance.
And I mean to be true,
Oh baby I do.
But the day I will be,
I know you will flee.
Far Away,
Leaving me in my truth.
Alone.
exceeds in beauty
the bliss of ignorance.
And I mean to be true,
Oh baby I do.
But the day I will be,
I know you will flee.
Far Away,
Leaving me in my truth.
Alone.
thinking....of u
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Thinking of you
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Last night I think my head played,
a sport of kinds...that pain rewinds.
A thought, a scent and dream,
a vague sense of that missing stream,
cold and clear,
of echoes of laughter, your face in the mist.
The agony of twisted fate like a pumping fist.
A letter of questions, answers, desires, deep burning fires,
Why you asked me ?
Did I miss my chance,
Why did I not understand ?
the meaning of that glance.
All I can say is I was slow, I was late,
left too much to decide for undecided fate
Now I sit here, sick, thinking of you
What we could have been,
What we could be,
What we could have become.
A lost treasure is a pain to the heart,
A wound slight repairing in time.
But how ? do you heal,
if someone reaches in
and takes away, that part, that pumping dear
and leaves you with nothing but fear.
Fear of emptiness, Fear of loneliness,
Fear of loss, Fear of pain,
Fear of dying alone and in vain.
I reach out one last time...
For that non-ending bliss,
Hoping to hope, for the last chance, i couldnt have missed
And if I fail; I wont wail;
I would smile and say, on my final way,
I was thinking of you
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Written after I dreamt of "her" last night...
she was in a letter answering some questions and posing new questions...
after months of silence....
I felt sick the whole day and decided to write this as an emotional release.
21 Feb. 2006 11:56 pm
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Thinking of you
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Last night I think my head played,
a sport of kinds...that pain rewinds.
A thought, a scent and dream,
a vague sense of that missing stream,
cold and clear,
of echoes of laughter, your face in the mist.
The agony of twisted fate like a pumping fist.
A letter of questions, answers, desires, deep burning fires,
Why you asked me ?
Did I miss my chance,
Why did I not understand ?
the meaning of that glance.
All I can say is I was slow, I was late,
left too much to decide for undecided fate
Now I sit here, sick, thinking of you
What we could have been,
What we could be,
What we could have become.
A lost treasure is a pain to the heart,
A wound slight repairing in time.
But how ? do you heal,
if someone reaches in
and takes away, that part, that pumping dear
and leaves you with nothing but fear.
Fear of emptiness, Fear of loneliness,
Fear of loss, Fear of pain,
Fear of dying alone and in vain.
I reach out one last time...
For that non-ending bliss,
Hoping to hope, for the last chance, i couldnt have missed
And if I fail; I wont wail;
I would smile and say, on my final way,
I was thinking of you
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Written after I dreamt of "her" last night...
she was in a letter answering some questions and posing new questions...
after months of silence....
I felt sick the whole day and decided to write this as an emotional release.
21 Feb. 2006 11:56 pm
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here with you
why are u sad.
when u shud not be
just calm down, clear ur mind
imagine sitting under a tree
soft breeze through you hair,
ur thoughts clear and free
calm, quiet....peaceful as it can be
just you and me just you and me
i know it feels like all is lost
sun's yellow warmth feels like winters frost
i know each thought of yours is remembering someone
that someone, that something, that someone's something
just remember this that time will pass
the best doctor has started his magic
and while he works, he mends, erases, cleanses
I will be here
cause i promised once and i promise again
i will always be there for u
when u shud not be
just calm down, clear ur mind
imagine sitting under a tree
soft breeze through you hair,
ur thoughts clear and free
calm, quiet....peaceful as it can be
just you and me just you and me
i know it feels like all is lost
sun's yellow warmth feels like winters frost
i know each thought of yours is remembering someone
that someone, that something, that someone's something
just remember this that time will pass
the best doctor has started his magic
and while he works, he mends, erases, cleanses
I will be here
cause i promised once and i promise again
i will always be there for u
liberate
This has a story behind it ....
I ended my life,
I left you alone
My evil father,
Forced u in a dome.
Now I am back,
To end ur attack.
Other people i get dozen a dime,
But ur beauty, your voice
Has brought me back,
Back to calm ur troubled thinking
Back to claim whats mine.
And when the world is shattered, destroyed
Nothing but a rocky ledge survives.
Overlooking the ocean, the moony night,
The nightingale sits silent on the rock
looks around at her plight,
Lonely she was and lonely she is.
Then the blacksmith comes to his dear,
wiping away, all her fears.
He sits with her hand in hand,
Looking over the rough ocean, the spotless land
She sings to him,
and he....hears
I ended my life,
I left you alone
My evil father,
Forced u in a dome.
Now I am back,
To end ur attack.
Other people i get dozen a dime,
But ur beauty, your voice
Has brought me back,
Back to calm ur troubled thinking
Back to claim whats mine.
And when the world is shattered, destroyed
Nothing but a rocky ledge survives.
Overlooking the ocean, the moony night,
The nightingale sits silent on the rock
looks around at her plight,
Lonely she was and lonely she is.
Then the blacksmith comes to his dear,
wiping away, all her fears.
He sits with her hand in hand,
Looking over the rough ocean, the spotless land
She sings to him,
and he....hears
lOss
you see faces and you see smiles,
you see twinkles and you see eyes,
covering the expression-less, soul-less
feelings devoid.
you like to think its false, untrue,
but sooner or later it dawns on you,
once you've lost all blood,
no one can suck you dry.
you see twinkles and you see eyes,
covering the expression-less, soul-less
feelings devoid.
you like to think its false, untrue,
but sooner or later it dawns on you,
once you've lost all blood,
no one can suck you dry.
Frustration
I walk alone,
All alone.
In this dome of misery,
This dome of anguish, loneliness, pain.
I look around, I am blind.
Frustration preceeds, death succeeds,
your memory receeds.
All alone.
In this dome of misery,
This dome of anguish, loneliness, pain.
I look around, I am blind.
Frustration preceeds, death succeeds,
your memory receeds.
Angels and Demons
angels and demons,
singing along.
angels and demons,
dreaming along.
angels and demons,
drinking along.
lost in space,
lost in time,
lost in thoughts,
lost in mind.
lost in body,
lost in soul.
lost,
in moments of time
spent together.
yet glimpses of angels,
yet glimpses of demons,
Yet they sit,
Happy and drunk.
Together.
singing along.
angels and demons,
dreaming along.
angels and demons,
drinking along.
lost in space,
lost in time,
lost in thoughts,
lost in mind.
lost in body,
lost in soul.
lost,
in moments of time
spent together.
yet glimpses of angels,
yet glimpses of demons,
Yet they sit,
Happy and drunk.
Together.
Why
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Why?
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I am not your son
yet why do i feel the love
in your hearts embrace
why do i feel the pride
why do i feel the pain
why do i feel the urge
why am i ready to fight
why do i feel so hurt
? why ? why ? why ?
why do i care
what bond is it that we share
maybe it's the love you shower
maybe it's the hope
maybe it is the warmth in your embrace
maybe it's your beauty i see
maybe it's your simplicity ; so free
maybe it's just a fools path
regardless,
now one thing i am sure
it's love at first sight
so now i will take on this fight...
i will become your son,
i will share your pride,
i will feel your pain,
i will make that bond,
of unconditional love, as a mothers
of eternal peace, as the sky
of boundless freedom, as a kite
flying away in this dark starry night.
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Written thinking of many things.....that old lady on the cash counter, that nice landlady, your adopted country....anything you care for a lot but dont understand Why???
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Why?
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I am not your son
yet why do i feel the love
in your hearts embrace
why do i feel the pride
why do i feel the pain
why do i feel the urge
why am i ready to fight
why do i feel so hurt
? why ? why ? why ?
why do i care
what bond is it that we share
maybe it's the love you shower
maybe it's the hope
maybe it is the warmth in your embrace
maybe it's your beauty i see
maybe it's your simplicity ; so free
maybe it's just a fools path
regardless,
now one thing i am sure
it's love at first sight
so now i will take on this fight...
i will become your son,
i will share your pride,
i will feel your pain,
i will make that bond,
of unconditional love, as a mothers
of eternal peace, as the sky
of boundless freedom, as a kite
flying away in this dark starry night.
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Written thinking of many things.....that old lady on the cash counter, that nice landlady, your adopted country....anything you care for a lot but dont understand Why???
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Waiting
I'll be dead and be long gone
I'll be lonely, lost alone
I'll be sitting,
in beautiful rain, in cleansing pain.
I'll be waiting till the end of time,
let the sun die, the universe implode
I'll be there, here, just.
cause I know you said
you'll be right back.
I'll be lonely, lost alone
I'll be sitting,
in beautiful rain, in cleansing pain.
I'll be waiting till the end of time,
let the sun die, the universe implode
I'll be there, here, just.
cause I know you said
you'll be right back.
Time
Flowing ticks..moving seconds
melting moments..blowing time
slow down, stem your flow.
Let me feel, let me trust
Your love in this moment of
purity, nakedness.
I will be all yours,
in time.
Believe me, let me be.
melting moments..blowing time
slow down, stem your flow.
Let me feel, let me trust
Your love in this moment of
purity, nakedness.
I will be all yours,
in time.
Believe me, let me be.
Veil
This is my favorite,
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I know you are oblivious,
to what goes on in her mind.
You look at her and say,
she has, no reason to sway.
Dont look at her face
Just look in those eyes
Those glowing orbs of sadness.
You might think that her pain is gone
You might think that she is happy and free
But just stop for a moment and,
look at those hazel pearls,
those lakes, those oceans, that hazy blue.
And you'll see what troubles me,
troubles her too.
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I know you are oblivious,
to what goes on in her mind.
You look at her and say,
she has, no reason to sway.
Dont look at her face
Just look in those eyes
Those glowing orbs of sadness.
You might think that her pain is gone
You might think that she is happy and free
But just stop for a moment and,
look at those hazel pearls,
those lakes, those oceans, that hazy blue.
And you'll see what troubles me,
troubles her too.
Missing
Who will miss the king
when his kingdom will be gone
Who will miss the lover
when her darling sleeps alone
Who will miss the tiger
When hes nothing but raw bones
Who will miss the sailor
when his ship is sunk and drowned
Who will miss the singer
when her voice is soft and croaked
To be missed is all I seek,
To be loved is all I want,
To be remembered by you...
When I am walking far alone.
To know that you will think of me
when I am long gone.
With your picture in my mind,
That collage of our times together
With your thought in my being,
I will be
mightier than the king, stonger than the tiger,
determined than the sailor and leave me as
the lover that I am.
when his kingdom will be gone
Who will miss the lover
when her darling sleeps alone
Who will miss the tiger
When hes nothing but raw bones
Who will miss the sailor
when his ship is sunk and drowned
Who will miss the singer
when her voice is soft and croaked
To be missed is all I seek,
To be loved is all I want,
To be remembered by you...
When I am walking far alone.
To know that you will think of me
when I am long gone.
With your picture in my mind,
That collage of our times together
With your thought in my being,
I will be
mightier than the king, stonger than the tiger,
determined than the sailor and leave me as
the lover that I am.
Just
JUST
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just a faint scent,
just a flickering glimpse,
just an old tarnished picture,
just the starry night,
just the naked thunder,
just a moment in time,
and i go.
lost, uncontrolled, spiralling
back when all i wanted
was to look at you
when all i did
was think of you
when all i wanted
was to hold you.
still i am not healed,
i will never be.
unless....
And there we go again,
And there it hurts again,
i think i'll just sit here,
in this salty rain.
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just a faint scent,
just a flickering glimpse,
just an old tarnished picture,
just the starry night,
just the naked thunder,
just a moment in time,
and i go.
lost, uncontrolled, spiralling
back when all i wanted
was to look at you
when all i did
was think of you
when all i wanted
was to hold you.
still i am not healed,
i will never be.
unless....
And there we go again,
And there it hurts again,
i think i'll just sit here,
in this salty rain.
Gone
i may be gone tomorrow, or the day after
burning in dancing flames,
or rotting in sleeping earth
but remember i will always be there
alive, singing, dancing, crazy
with you, in you, amongst you.
until you too will join me.
but honey, be not too good
cause i the prince of hell
shall wait for my beauty queen
burning in dancing flames,
or rotting in sleeping earth
but remember i will always be there
alive, singing, dancing, crazy
with you, in you, amongst you.
until you too will join me.
but honey, be not too good
cause i the prince of hell
shall wait for my beauty queen
An Island
i am standing amidst an ocean
an ocean of unknown faces,
an ocean of forgotten places,
an ocean of men,
an ocean of women,
an ocean of humanity,
an ocean of empathy,
surrounded by love,
surrounded by pain,
surrounded by hate
surrounded by rain.
i look for,
a person....the person.
confused by this mess,
suffocated by these superficial actions,
suffocated by these superficial reactions.
i look around for a shoulder
i look around for something familiar,
i look around for something genuine,
i look around for comfort.
In this surrounding entropy,
i look for some space,
i long for a lonely place,
i long for the hope of a sunrise,
i long for the company of the breeze,
i long for the calm before the storm.
in my search of this elusive place,
i look inside
and find the loneliest place around.
an ocean of unknown faces,
an ocean of forgotten places,
an ocean of men,
an ocean of women,
an ocean of humanity,
an ocean of empathy,
surrounded by love,
surrounded by pain,
surrounded by hate
surrounded by rain.
i look for,
a person....the person.
confused by this mess,
suffocated by these superficial actions,
suffocated by these superficial reactions.
i look around for a shoulder
i look around for something familiar,
i look around for something genuine,
i look around for comfort.
In this surrounding entropy,
i look for some space,
i long for a lonely place,
i long for the hope of a sunrise,
i long for the company of the breeze,
i long for the calm before the storm.
in my search of this elusive place,
i look inside
and find the loneliest place around.
A Random Thought
A random thought
It comes it goes,
Like water it flows,
into the head and out of its grasp
From its root in the brain,
to its leaf on the tongue,
Out of control,
It swings it sings,
Around their fate the neurons go,
unsurpassed, uncontrolled, untamed,
My filter broken,
my propriety destroyed,
my spontaneous unhindered drunken-ness employed,
A random thought is all that I seem.
They say I am honest,
but I think I am drunk.
Cause only then into your face,
my randomness is flung.
It comes it goes,
Like water it flows,
into the head and out of its grasp
From its root in the brain,
to its leaf on the tongue,
Out of control,
It swings it sings,
Around their fate the neurons go,
unsurpassed, uncontrolled, untamed,
My filter broken,
my propriety destroyed,
my spontaneous unhindered drunken-ness employed,
A random thought is all that I seem.
They say I am honest,
but I think I am drunk.
Cause only then into your face,
my randomness is flung.
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